What I'd Never Do

I'd be my Daddy's Little Girl

Forever, so I said

I'd never, ever kiss a man

Or take him to my bed

But then one day, my body changed

And with it my desire.

With womanhood there came in me

Hidden, searing fires.

In time, I went and kissed a boy

And let him hold my hand

But still I sternly told myself

I'd never love a man.

He came at the worst moment

Found me confused and lost

Showed me an illusion of shelter

But never disclosed the cost.

He snuck into my mind

And took over my life.

I let him into my bed.

I thought I'd be his wife.

Foolish girl, You dreaming one

Can't you see the lies?

There was no real love in his heart,

Just acting with his eyes.

And so he went and left me,

Not so broken as I seemed.

For two years thence, I healed.

Of wholeness did I dream.

I said I'd never love a man

Who was mere 5 years older

But I guess time and experience

Made my heart much bolder.

 When it rains, it pours, they say

I guess it's true with lovers

But sometimes you really don't want them

I suddenly discovered.

One of them, and one man only

Could my interest entice

And what a person, this person is

I loved him not once, but twice.

So many things I've gone and done

For reasons I cannot construe.

If I could so change my mind,

What else won't I do?